‘umbrella’ blasting from the speakers some 20 meters away 
the dying light of the dying day hugging, sheltering my back 
they were watching a building
                                                    ‘ was gutted, the work was everywhere’ 
        stand on a chair 
Restless
their body towers above us sitting on the concrete floor
imposing with friendly intentions

their hands holding a laptop on both sides
and then only one balancing bravely at the bottom-centre 
the other hand is busy    carries a cigarette between middle-finger and pointer 
fingers traveling from mouth, back to the laptops left side holding it with care given the precarious 
circumstance. 
they are speaking with a loud voice 
the matter was burning with importance 
‘we were thinking of those who fucked in the building’ 
‘utopias are dirty you see’ 
their hair is tidily braided in two 
secured with two hair ties that resembled neatly folded bandanas 
the top of their hair is covered sheltered 
a silk scarf that wraps from the back of the neck back to the front of it 
( an intriguingly beautiful play of knots and textures) 

back and forth 
from left to right goes their head their eyebrows following the words on the screen furiously 
who is faster? 
their pupils glued to the words so intensely that the mouth could hardly release the sound of words fast 
enough 
racing minds, squinted eyes and wrathful spit raining from their lips 
daringly close burns the cigarette between the fingers 
‘water is the enemy and the presence of forever’ 
their black heavy jersey skirt is waving subtly against the mid may blue 
as if trying to soften the urgency of their reading 
like water, slowing them down ‘


we are no longer slaves of our memories’ 
the cigarette no longer lit 


a person in the audience sitting across from me shares the same experience instead of hammering their 
thoughts into the keyboard of their notes app his illuminated face is smiling 
chuckling quietly for himself, from time to time 
                                                                         (i hope people don't think i am disinterestedly texting)
his hands are folded, as if in prayer 
his legs crossed one in front of the other

carrying its dead kin 
the ant crawls with ease on the brick floor 

‘ we are no longer slaves of our memories’
 a lovesong to the barricades, ‘falling for them as you built them’

tornadoes of words, made them grow more and more animated, a crescendo exceeded to a breaking point 
after the last words of their text were uttered their demeanour changed 
their body collapsed into nervous relieve 
        head going back and forth from up to down, shyly 
        green eyes thankful .



By Anna Ammerer
@annaammerer